and then he said, NO DON'T ACTUALLY CATCH IT. GEEZ

zoom zoom priest
pleaze
pleaze pleasze me
hold on to the tssss phwish
(coca cola delicious smacking noises)

maybe you want to just rest
but there's nothing better than dreaming about resting
depending on the rain
a hip swing up against something solid
and after the fish scale dress
pooled on the floor
and a hip swing against something solid
but so
much
slower

i am talking to you from around a mouthful of toast
that i am taking hours to chew

you can smash with your eyes
and yes there is a period of this
zoom zoom priest
hold on to the wall
as tssssssssss phwish the room tips over

what's me in the morning, me in the noonday, me in the evening?
it's me
baby baby zoom zoom priest tsss pwhish
it's still me

kuh-tssss kuh-tssss kuh-tssss mmmmmhmmmm
drop into the knees
popping invisible buttons
fish scale dress
as long as you're not standing under florescents  
you'll look damn fine

but it's the bruise blue that holds
in the morning
on another dried out, hiccuping face across from your own
a mouthful of toast
chewed over hours
hum in the bathroom, act like nothing happened
that your button bruised hips dropped into the knees
were never even there

coca cola delicious smacking noises
it's me, it's still me
the police will catch you smashing things in the noonday light

fuck europe

for eating all of my money. fucking a.

this is an unimaginative post, it's just me sharing links. then i'll get off the screen and go to the barn.

Saturday evening in Pune someone bombed the German Bakery. Now the count is 9 dead, 60 injured. I wonder if the U of C will do a program there next year.. it's a funny city. I don't know why anyone would target the Pune German Bakery over any of the other ones in the country. Maybe proximity to the Osho Ashram? (AKA the Sex Ashram, it's an expensive place to go and very popular with western tourists. and they hang out at the german bakery a lot. it's a good place to meet creeps and drink kombucha and watermelon juice (mmmm), eat green hummus and really really good coffee-chocolate cake). I guess Headley (one of the main guys involved in planning the 26/11 attacks in Bombay last year) visited the Osho last year, scoped it out. so maybe... well anyway. this happened. feels weird.

completely unrelated to that
I've been listening to the radio because the CD player in my parents car is still broken from when justin, alonso and I went to Maine last december. 1) it's all gaga 2) if it's not gaga, it's me trying to figure out what magic is contained in the refrains of these three songs
Replay by Iyaz

Whatcha Say by Jason Derulo

Let's Hear it for New York by Jay Z and Alicia Keys

there's something in these refrains that makes me feel something. it comes from outside of me and i feel good or strong, or like driving faster, or like singing loudly and bouncing up and down. also present in the Kaskade Remix of Break the Ice by Britney (~50 seconds in). this sort of feeling I think is unique to pop. it feels contrived, dirty, manufactured. it's like the assholes who made that song "Tonight's Gonna Be a Good Night" knew they were gonna make it big.

i think it's that aaj kal (these days) I'm supersensitive to media. I feel like I'm overloading, I'm hyperstimulated. my mind's been whirling a mile a minute, even now when I'm alone with my dog in the house. I can't be quiet except when I went to the Quaker meeting house on sunday. i'm so excited and confused to be back and but i haven't yet given myself any responsibilities that come with home. whirr whirr whirring with activity and a low balance on my bank account. waahfladjklfa ca

but while we're on the topic of youtube,
check out Julia's Bad Romance video (julia is mine and justin's friend. she lives in Mass and made this video for something at her school. &she won!)

oh also wayyyyy to much gaga. i'm taking a break for a while. probably until j comes back. (a week)