that's all

i washed my scarf
and i washed my sheets
because you're coming over

i am very tired today
because the washing machine
had an unbalanced load
and i had to separate all my clothes
and wait it out
so very very late

have i said all the words
in all the possible combinations yet
because
i feel my desire for this
construction
slipping

errybody on my facebook feed
is feeling real good about themselves today
here's a gold star for having a base level of decency

oh my god
also
how could i forget

in a test situation
write your cheat sheet on your thigh
and pull your skirt up under your desk

you teacher shouldn't be looking anyway

all i know is this
men so desperately want access to feminity

not your friends, not your drag queens or your good men
or your neither-category-no-need-to-tick-boxes besties
no of course not (though good men, be warned)
i'm talkin the weaving bro flailing past you on halloween
your father when he was in college
the road trip companions once they've reached the secluded cottage

they want it so bad

they want it so bad
they get drunk and put on their friends' skirts
at a house party
and somebody calls them a fag
and they play it up real good and pout and simper
everybody laughs like it's fucking funny

i bet they feel dangerous
they want in on the deal
to feel tall and teetering and animal
to present all wispy hair tendrils and then bear their teeth
i bet they'd want to bleed down their legs permanently
til the skin turns red forever

they laugh like it's fucking funny
and it's not and they know it
don't you always want to become what you're scared of?

bless them

the pussycat dolls are important
kylie is important
rihanna is important
kesha is important
beyonce is very important
and britney is still important too
gwen is important
and christina and willow and taylor and ciara and miley and estelle and nelly furtado
important important important

swish swish
our toes are pushing into the floor
and we're windin'/grindin'
and we're not listening