i hope you realize this is post 667

i'm just very emotional right now!
i have kept my finger nails short and never dyed my hair
in deference to the old ways

but my baby brother is growing up to be such a good man
a good beautiful kind of human
and beyonce has a new album out and everyone is dying about it which is a good
and that girl i loved in vain is out there doing slo-mo without me TO OUR SONG
and my life is a horrible horrible small contained mess
and i have done so many grevious wrongs
on so many bodies
and my own
and i feel i know a lot without knowing much at all
and i'm leaking blood
and i'm very very tired
and i don't know what the hell i'm doing
which is probably sort of okay, you know?