Showing posts with label a friend says goodbye. Show all posts
Showing posts with label a friend says goodbye. Show all posts

Friday, February 22, 2013

to the health of COD: the future of American journalism

rod stewart croons twice at the drop of a dollar
you gotta love a cop bar sporting mob movie posters
lower order yuppies smoking inside (last of its kind)
snow drifts on the industrial corridor, a pitted carpet

she shouts up to the fashionable lofts
WE ARE TRYING
TO HAVE
A CIVILIZATION HERE
--you are not helping
holds up deuces for the honking driver
ice cools the place where the tears have dried

how do the spaniards even poop?
their entire diet is salted meat and bread and cheese and olives
fields of heather and a museum that induces vertigo
but oranges with hard, impressive navels


everybody gets to slow dance with the girl
wrist resting on chests, a light hand hold
once before she goes
the eastern seaboard? the east coast? you wouldn't turn 52 grand down either
gets to have dinner with her
she preaches the same sermon to all of us

the city should have been big enough for all of us
it should have been enough


the third coast becomes a lakeside villa, a neverland
i'm carding her hair, i'm touching her back
i'm proud, you're beautiful, you'll be great, buy yourself so many leather goods with all that money they're throwing at you, come see me, come see me. i know you have to go, yeah you're gonna do real good.

How'd you like Django Unchained?
right, right sure
but the thing, the bit under the bridge right--
with the baseball bat and pretending to knock one out of the park
while he knocks a head in
THAT
that's violence in toto
disguised, okay

the lower order yuppies are wrapped in a tight circle
by quarter to midnight
it's frank sinatra at this point
two old polish dudes staring intently at that patterned skirt
nearer the door, nearer the bell
we're doing the same, but
you know you can cry, right?
and it all bubbles up, right out of the chest
and when e and i walk out of the bar
i'm holding her like we're walking away from a graveyard
there's a flung cigarette butt on clybourn avenue and the ground fairly sparkles at adams and monroe and if you stand on the corner of lincoln and george on a windy night the air howls through the tunnel in the telephone pole and it's the sound you might hear when the city empties out forever, along with taxi cabs still playing WBEZ and i'll expect the trucks again next week in front of my apartment to carry the crew of Chicago Fire and i'll still get on the bus in the wrong direction at Jefferson park

i rewrote the sermon
we loved it each other and it wasn't enough

Thursday, February 14, 2013

some remembrances are no longer useful
slide down the back road to the rock on the cul-de-sac's edge
the dirt path forking around both sides
i always used to think the side i chose gave the day its shape
up through the trees and near the reindeer farm
how i would get spit out onto pavement again
right next to your house
staying on streets would have stretched the journey out by miles
i remember how

or a list of spots for roof access
where i could take kissers or
those whose youth i wished to crow
and
earlier
chants of victory poolside
the order in which she'd pick up our vegetables
the hot touch of plastic seats
the scantron's roving eye

small deaths refusing to be integrated
you looks so young - i've been born so many times
after the incidents down by the back board and the lunch table
chain-link passageways and alleys turned driveways
the hard champagne sun

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

"the perfect man, one crazy enough, the same dreams"



i never came to you in france 
in the night or day of france
i could not feed myself to you

your dream as it draped on a final calendar, 
threatening me with disappearance
until it lay on its deathbed.

your hunger groping around, 
claiming black and white
dismissing and blurring.

now you deliver me more words
you are full of quickness 
to claim you have found something to eat

but you cannot leave 
a world behind you do not feel, let alone see
you cannot leave what you have not tried to love.

i am not to be left behind.
i refuse to receive your rotting flowers 
of goodbye poetry i am not part of the world your turn around on

as you turn around you realize youre back
you never left.
you dont understand me?

your words have not extended your territory of possibility
they are closed windows
a view behind glass, a fantastic landscape within a frame

i see you performing an exhibit 
at a museum in your heart motioning out your freedom, 
believing in it so well

calling it india, calling it love, calling it
the perfect man, one crazy enough, with the same dream