Showing posts with label drunkalways. Show all posts
Showing posts with label drunkalways. Show all posts

Friday, February 22, 2013

to the health of COD: the future of American journalism

rod stewart croons twice at the drop of a dollar
you gotta love a cop bar sporting mob movie posters
lower order yuppies smoking inside (last of its kind)
snow drifts on the industrial corridor, a pitted carpet

she shouts up to the fashionable lofts
WE ARE TRYING
TO HAVE
A CIVILIZATION HERE
--you are not helping
holds up deuces for the honking driver
ice cools the place where the tears have dried

how do the spaniards even poop?
their entire diet is salted meat and bread and cheese and olives
fields of heather and a museum that induces vertigo
but oranges with hard, impressive navels


everybody gets to slow dance with the girl
wrist resting on chests, a light hand hold
once before she goes
the eastern seaboard? the east coast? you wouldn't turn 52 grand down either
gets to have dinner with her
she preaches the same sermon to all of us

the city should have been big enough for all of us
it should have been enough


the third coast becomes a lakeside villa, a neverland
i'm carding her hair, i'm touching her back
i'm proud, you're beautiful, you'll be great, buy yourself so many leather goods with all that money they're throwing at you, come see me, come see me. i know you have to go, yeah you're gonna do real good.

How'd you like Django Unchained?
right, right sure
but the thing, the bit under the bridge right--
with the baseball bat and pretending to knock one out of the park
while he knocks a head in
THAT
that's violence in toto
disguised, okay

the lower order yuppies are wrapped in a tight circle
by quarter to midnight
it's frank sinatra at this point
two old polish dudes staring intently at that patterned skirt
nearer the door, nearer the bell
we're doing the same, but
you know you can cry, right?
and it all bubbles up, right out of the chest
and when e and i walk out of the bar
i'm holding her like we're walking away from a graveyard
there's a flung cigarette butt on clybourn avenue and the ground fairly sparkles at adams and monroe and if you stand on the corner of lincoln and george on a windy night the air howls through the tunnel in the telephone pole and it's the sound you might hear when the city empties out forever, along with taxi cabs still playing WBEZ and i'll expect the trucks again next week in front of my apartment to carry the crew of Chicago Fire and i'll still get on the bus in the wrong direction at Jefferson park

i rewrote the sermon
we loved it each other and it wasn't enough

Sunday, September 2, 2012

crickets, new hamshire

screaming, car brakes, creaking spires.
disintegration has noises that have no place to go
they ricochet off walls at random--one enters my window
where, like a spider hungry, i wait
once eaten i say i have disintegrated
now and again under and over these sounds
i havent seen any of your faces in quite a long time
tell me where i am:
silence.
ill ask a stranger
instead.

Monday, October 17, 2011

the chaos of a youthful fridge (its too many items packed in)
of almost two glasses of red wine
the pleasure of reading foucault
of the album that mentions your town (everyone is into it)
of sneaky cigs, sneaky spliffs
the kindness of giving each other timelines
the intimacy of casually influencing each other
this we nuzzle in
swim in
dance lazy hip circles in
accuse each other of being deliberately obtuse in
agree to disagree in
substance
lapping at the edges of grounding
accepting gravity
and in so doing
forgive it

you press your lips to my eye
pretending to be drunk
and our light, ever so light carefulness with each other
blooms suddenly
and we recall that we love each other
without speaking it
"I feel so damn slutty"
"I love your art"
"I woke up with a spill of my own blood between my legs"
in the quiet
we have no need to be cruel
and remake our family
until our parents are forgotten
and cousin means something so new
supes amazing
supes perf
perf perf
c u soon

Thursday, September 3, 2009

remarks on being in the world

i just discovered that our dishwasher got fixed 2 months ago and we never noticed. yeah!

tequila and rum are different, i realized. after genderqueerchicago meeting last night, i came south with a crew and went to sav's to celebrate/take my pants off/send love with sav to d.c. i started taking dirty girl scouts (there were at least five scattered through my evening) and then moved to rum and coke which was actually, deceptively, tequila and coke. those are different things.

i am nibbling through my cocoon at istria; my wings are covered with grounds and mucus but i am very nearly a fullfledged Barist(a). a wondrous new world of people two minutes from the haus. yes.

Friday, August 28, 2009

summupance

an update:
welcome to meghan/m.t.raptor to this box of bundling and bed of buddiness.

tonight i sprouted
and flew.
biking [in the rain] is so good (, even if it's down 55th street.)

my buddy sav is moving to washington d.c. it is strange to see a buddy diasporating. maybehopefully she will join the blog.

tonight is full of swirls
the baohaus is dark and full of cats.
and me.

love to all who are here and elsewhere.
a