it's a sergei o day
you know
perfectly democratic and ordinary and tired
this is everyday
yes this every day every way

i could say this very intricately
i do not want to
i cannot read anymore theses in twisted english

i i i i i i iii ii i i i i i iiii i i i i i i
clatter crash clang
i have nothing of my own to say
there are wars we cannot see

maybe i'll develop a very specific taste for
erotic literature

always promising making promises alice
blue dress white smock
a diseased brain that lights up different on the scan
i'm tired of my body and my brain and my horrible little self

i could have gone to Georgetown u know

little little gnome little wart little snail little grease stain little little little little garrison of flies buzzing in the doorway little troll little cobbled together barely functioning homunculus little little enough to swim in the bathtub little tooth little snaggle little praise little known little corner little room

absorb myself!

massachusetts, the first state to make education compulsory

last night i went to a film called "waiting for superman"
it is about the american education system, in its current awfulness
gosh it is so sad to see what is happening out there, and hard to understand
it seems to have changed so much even since i was in school
so many children are being shut out and left behind
thinking life is not for them...that they wont make it.
what fear and burden to carry around at such a young age.
the main blame are the outdated teachers' unions that make it impossible to fire the bad ones.
out of history these unions arose to protect women, but now all they do is perpetuate the shit-show and protect lazy assholes
allowing no competition or innovation. i would normally say competition is bad thing but in this case it could be beautiful.
and the situation is so ridiculous, unbelievable
that we all stand by, our leaders especially, and act like our systems are stronger than we are
that we cant change what has been written down for years.
it is no wonder why america is going on in the way it is
no fresh ideas, no innovation.
im getting a real good insight right now because the friend i am staying with is training to become a teacher
and it real passionate.
there are so many
teachers getting fat and dim, texting during class, reading magazines, getting bored, getting marriend, lacking wonder
and it all gets worse as the neighborhood income drops.
every now and again a master teacher comes along and shows them how it is done
but it doesnt matter because the bad ones cant be fired
and the good ones cant be rewarded
SUCH A FUCKING JOKE
stirs me right up
adults are selfish and unwilling to change, they wont even do it for their children
they have to be right.
....i see the potential in becoming a teacher and the joy in protecting the life-force of a child
encouraging it is truly a way to change the world
im a thinking about teaching in some capacity
you have to be so many things a friend, a performer, a singer, personable, loving, one step ahead of the youngins, but also open to their wisdom, and so much more....! gosh i fear for the ones who think if they dont graduate they will be nothing,
breaks my heart

i know school sucks, but so long as it is here
and kids have to go then this crap has to stop.

i want to slam america against a wall
and yell in its face
what the fuck are you doing
if we are nothing
america is nothing